Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Dear 14 year old self,

You are beautiful!
Stop calling yourself fat, because you aren't. You are healthy.
Don't quit ROTC. You are good at it. It gives you the exercise you NEED!
Remember that day.. yeah, that day... don't do it.. you're going to regret it.
He isn't worth it.
And when that other boy asks, say yes. Even if he wasn't serious just say yes, because he was as crazy about you as you were about him. Stop being to blind to notice and make a move, because he has done enough.
and overall just SHUT UP!

Dear 16 year old self - 
You are good enough.
Those break ups were not your fault. 
Those guys weren't good enough.
If you haven't taken my advice by now, what are you waiting for?!
You know he loves you so go for it!
Study for your learners permit test... you fail it twice.
You can do anything...
Don't give up.
Around 6am on April 1st call a friend so that you won't have to be at his funeral  a week later.
Stop skipping school.
Oh, and it won't kill you to send in a college application.

Dear 18 year old self - 

Go to college.
Follow your dreams and go to SCAD.
Spend your graduation money on a Nikon. You won't regret it.
Don't let a boy drag you along for years. He wasn't worth it two years ago, he isn't worth it now.
And when the other guy calls tell him all of the things you didn't tell him before. It won't backfire. He will believe you.

Dear new mommy self and current self - 
Call the lactation lady at the hospital. Beg for her to come to your room.
Notice her lip, I think that was the problem.
Keep trying. Camp out on the sofa and just keep trying.
Refuse doing anything except exactly what you want to do on your birthday.
Slow down.
Save money.
Cheer up.

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

I read a blog a while back about getting the whole house organized one step at a time. Just doing simple projects daily/weekly you'll eventually get there. I plan on starting on my storage closet. It is upstairs and it stores most of our extra junk other than holiday items and outdoor things that stay in the garage.

Here's my problem. I've got so much junk. There is so much I could get rid of. What would I do with it though? I would give it away, but who would I give it to?

Anyways, I just wanted to tell someone so that I would make sure to follow through. Hopefully I'll get before and after pictures.

Tuesday, May 24, 2011


I've been having trouble getting everything accomplished lately. I've been in a vicious cycle with myself. I need to get stuff done, it piles up, I have even more to do, I get overwhelmed, I start to shut down and it just keeps stacking up.

I've really been trying to figure out how to get it done steadily so it doesn't add up until I can't handle it. My mom keeps saying just do a load of laundry everyday, but for some reason it just seems so hard for me to do. In our house we don't have enough laundry to do everyday. If I save it for every other day I forget until a week has passed. Or I put it in the washer and forget until it has mildew, or it sits in the dryer forever waiting to be folded. Whatever the case is I just can't seem to get it done.

I decided since I love lists that I should make a list of what chores I should do each day. I figured if I do one or two chores a day they won't pile up and become overwhelming. It is much easier to do one or two a day than to do 10 in one day.

I found this online and printed it out. It was easy to make and turned out really cute. Here is a picture of the printout:

This is something I really want to keep up. I really like organization and I have such a hard time keeping it up. I've got papers stacked up on a desk. It seems like once I get them taken care of ten more piles come in. I can just envision beautiful notebooks nicely placed on bookshelves with perfectly organized documents. Everything is in its place and easily found.

In my house by our backdoor there is a small desk. It is stuck in between two doors which is really awkward. I have to have this small table under the desk to put my printer because there is no space on top. I don't want to fork out the money for one of those nice rolling filing carts so I have a milk crate one. Its pretty tacky but it gets the job done.

I get aggravated because I use to work with a lot of files. I would take notes, print resources and in the end file it. Now I have nothing. I would love to start my own newspaper or magazine, but its just not happening.



Thursday, May 19, 2011

I couldn't help it..

Because I couldn't help it. 

A. Age: 21

B. Bed size: Queen. Still not enough room though.

C. Chore that you hate: I don't like any of them. I have a really hard time with laundry though.

D. Dogs: none. just a cat.

E. Essential start to your day: uhm.. no essentials.

F. Favorite color: teal

G. Gold or Silver: silver

H. Height: 5'8

I. Instruments you play: a bit of piano

J. Job title: mom.

K. Kids: Lorelei

L. Live: MCLB Albany

M. Mother's name: Diane

N. Nicknames: Vic

O. Overnight hospital stays: When I had Lorelei, and back when I had tubes put in my ear, and I guess when I had my tonsils taken out.

P. Pet peeve: constant movement/noise. like tapping pencil or bouncing your leg. (I even do these things sometimes then I annoy my self.)  haha. I agree with Heather. 

Q. Quote from a movie: ... I hardly remember movies word for word. Even my favorites. I remember when I watch them, but my memory is horrible.

R. Right or left handed: right

S. Siblings: I have a half bro and a step bro. both are a few years older.

T. Time you wake up: late.

U. Underwear: yep.

V. Vegetable you hate: squash

W. What makes you run late: waking up late, or getting distracted.

X. X-Rays you've had: teeth, leg, foot.

Y. Yummy food that you make: I'm not great at anything.. 

Z. Zoo animal: lemmer. I'm not sure if I spelled that right.

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Yard sale time!

Lately my sleeping habits have been way out of whack. I got the pregnancy insomnia which carried on through until now. It is horrid. I normally go to bed after 3am, and then wake up with Lorelei in the morning. I feel like crap all day until I get a burst of energy around 8-9pm that lasts until I just can't stand myself anymore around 3.

I've been trying to make myself get up early so I can go to bed earlier (Lorelei will sleep until around 11 or later if I let her, and usually I will). It isn't easy. What is easy is to just hit ignore on the alarm clock and go right back to bed, because what will I do if I'm awake... nothing. As sad as this may sound the only real reason I've found to get myself out of bed is to go get a good breakfast at Burger King or Hardee's. I LOVE their breakfasts. They should serve them all day because that would be all I ever ordered. I could probably live off of Hardee's steak biscuits and Burger King croissants for the rest of my life. Throw in the occasional french toast and I'll be in heaven.

So I say all of that to say this - Thank goodness I decided to do this on Monday because I walk out my door to see my neighbor having a yard sale (on a Monday?). How awesome though! I don't even have to drive to it, its pretty much in my front yard! Sadly I had to leave the big crowd in front of my house to make it to Burger King because I wasn't about to pass up a croissant and the clock was ticking. I may have gotten up earlier than normal, but I slept until the last possible second.

The bad part was I missed out on two great deals. Two of the things I wanted most were snatched up. The first was a kitchen play set for Lorelei. One of the really nice ones too! It would have put our kitchen to shame. It also had a huge box full of accessories. The lady only wanted $60 for it which was a steal. The ones I've been looking at at the toy store are easily double or triple that. I walked up to the lady and asked her the price. I thought it over for a second and picked up the phone to call my husband to see if it was ok that I spend that much money and as I turned back around someone was loading it onto their truck... That sucked.. The next one was a really cute art easel. She had two. One was small and dinky. You could tell it had been used and the side with the chalk board had been written on with something other than chalk. I didn't even pay attention to that one. Then I turned around to see the good one. It was taller, it was a good sturdy easel. One side had a clean chalk board and the other had dry erase. In my mind I'm thinking homeschool - score! I noticed it just as another woman walked the owner over and asked the price. It was only $3. I wanted to cry over that one.

Here is what I did get though: 
  A stainless steel trashcan with a lid for $6 (I've been wanting one of these for a long time, but never wanted to pay the $20+ for it)
  A cover to Lorelei's changing pad on the changing table for $3. We were actually looking at buying a new one last week, but just couldn't pay $15.
  A huge set of stamping items for David's mom for $25. I'm not sure what this was worth, but I know it was worth WAY more than $25. - Actually, I just looked it up.. The set came with 10 ink pads, 6 packs of stamps 2 catalog/idea books and a bunch of accessories. The 10 ink pads alone were over $50. 1 pack of stamps cost (on the cheap end) $15. So yeah, I say good deal. Glad I found it for her.

I was happy with the turn out. Then today at lunch my husband came in and asked if I had noticed she was back out there today. Of course I went back over to say hello (and to check out what she had left and if anything else was new) but she was packing up. And then she told us to take whatever we wanted! I offered multiple times to pay her, but she refused. We got some clothes for Lorelei, a cute outdoors chair kid sized, and a few things that I can't wait for Lorelei to use when she starts homeschool. There are neat books that you can use on the TV and a hand held thing that helps you learn letters.

So shout out to our super sweet neighbors, even though they are about to move out of state. We were so blessed with this. I am so excited for Lorelei to start learning the alphabet and words and numbers. I know some of the things we were given today will help a bunch!!

Monday, May 9, 2011


I've heard this phrase a lot lately while I was looking into homeschooling. Lets be honest - what do we think when we first think of homesteading? I think of old farm houses, mules pulling plows, little girls running through corn fields with flowing dresses, oh and the Oregon Trail.

Look at the vast fields behind them. Lots and lots of NOTHING. Is it weird that when I see things like his I wonder about how she did diapers for her baby? How was breastfeeding for her, and if something happened to go wrong what did she supplement with? How far have they walked and where are they going? Oregon? Does that beard itch?

Ok, that isn't really what this is about. Modern homesteading is much different and I was surprised to find out that I am a bit of a homesteader myself. I've sewn a few things around the house myself, and my use of cloth diapers can be considered homesteading. Growing your own garden and canning foods also count. I've heard of  a lot of people doing that lately to save money (plus it tastes better, and is better for you!) Oh and having chickens and using their eggs is homesteading! Pretty much just living off of the land around you and being natural. Cut down on waste and pollution. I've just made some simple changes to make life better for my family, and in turn it is better for everyone around me and the earth. The amazing part is that it isn't so unheard of anymore. Everyone seems to be trying to make changes and live better. I live in a base house so I can't plant a garden or keep chickens, but I can recycle, use organic foods and reuse things. Oh, and if you hear about some of the things in your food you'll be running to organics faster than you can say antifreeze. (Yep, they've found that antifreeze is used in the making of some salad dressings.)

With all of that said I hope it got some wheels turning. Homesteading isn't as old fashioned as I first expected.
I have figured something out about myself lately... I have many many interests... and I get interested in one thing and forget the last. I really don't like that about myself, and I'm really trying to fix it. I really like cloth diapers still, but the plumbing in our new house has kept us from installing the sprayer, which in my opinion is a must for cleaning poopy diapers. I haven't used cloth diapers since we've moved because of that. *note to self: figure out how to fix this plumbing issue and go back to cloth!*

I've fallen behind on my couponing. I haven't gone shopping in over a week except to get a few things for our mother's day lunch, and I didn't use any coupons for that. Shame on me. I think a lot of the reason I have fallen behind is because of a mix up with the coupon website and I didn't get any inserts last week. I have since got some in the mail from a sweet lady so I will be getting those organized and get back to business. I also have a coupon class I'll be going to later this month. I'm so excited actually because it is being hosted by one of my favorite couponing blogs - SouthernSavers. In all honesty though, I think its good to take a break every once in a while. It will keep me from being overwhelmed and I won't get burnt out. I feel refreshed and ready to cut some coupons again!

Most of the blame for my slack can fall on home schooling. There is SO much to learn and I have been doing so much research lately. Couponing and cloth diapers came kind of naturally to me. It didn't take me long to figure it out, and it took even less time for me to know that it is what I wanted to do. I hardly doubted myself and I knew for sure that it was what was best. Homeschool has a lot of different aspects and can be done so many different ways. It is something I could really screw up if I don't do it right. It may or may not work for Lorelei, we'll just have to wait and see, and possibly try many different approaches. It just isn't as simple as picking a style of diaper or a way of organizing coupons.

Saturday, May 7, 2011

I've had the homeschooling on my mind a lot the past few days. I talked to my husband about it and he was super supportive about it.  The more I think about it the more I love it, and the more I am scared! 

I worry that I won't do the best and maybe she'd be better with a professional. I worry that it'll be a big deal if she misses all of the normal school things like prom and graduation. Maybe it won't even cross her mind. I was reading a forum earlier today that was talking about a homeschooler's friends always complaining of being bored. The homeschooled kids never seemed to have this problem. I wonder if Lorelei's life would be that much better? That she would never stop to think that she is bored. She would be having fun learning and creating and being a kid in all the ways that other kids have forgotten how to.

The more I think about it the pros outweigh the cons. If it comes to a point that she wants to try public/private school then maybe we'll let her, but for now I'll stick to my homeschooling ideas.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011


I've been having ideas lately, that I'm not sure if I'm ready to share with my whole family and the world yet, so I'm just going to share it here...

I'm seriously considering homeschooling Lorelei.

I know, probably not a big deal, I just have a feeling when I bring it up people will second guess me and ask me if I'm serious. They'll ask me if I've really looked into all of the work it takes and if I think I'm really willing to do it.

The answer is yes. I've researched it. I know it takes a lot of work. I know it is a big job to take on and that it won't be just sitting around the house all day looking at books. I know that, and I want to do it.

When I think of regular schools I think of concrete walls, hundreds of kids in desks all writing the same things, bullies, boring books, dying to escape and all of the other things that just go along with a school.

When I think of homeschooling I think of creative children, museums, art projects, an interest to learn an create. I want my daughter to want to learn. I want her to be able to learn from not just me, but her surroundings. I want her to be able to explore the world and figure stuff out, not just see stuff in books while sitting in a desk in a big concrete building while a hundred other kids read (and are bored by) the same stuff. I want her to feel free.

I just had to get that out there. That is why I feel homeschooling is best for us.